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Thu, Jul. 25th, 2013, 07:31 pm
I can't believe this is still here...

Oh my lanta....how rediculous is this! I can't believe live journal still exists! How funny!
I was reading two posts ago, particularly the list i had written for myself. A bucket list so to speak.
I actually felt pretty good about how many of those I was able to check off!

1. Take tap lessons. I 've always wanted to do this. I've done practically everything else, and its darn good exercise.
2. Take another vacation to New York. This time I want travel to Boston, Pittsburg, and Philli as well.
3. Get my passport. It the first step in going anywhere outside the U.S. (CHECK!)
4. Find a new best friend who's not dating, married or pregnant. (CHECK!)
5. Start saving for that house I want.
6. Start going to group things that scare me. I need to have confidence in my personality again. (CHECK!)
7. Cherish my parents more. They won't be around forever. (CHECK!)
8. Start to think about me being in a relationship again, and not be afraid of going for it. (CHECK!)
9. Buy a puppy. (CHECK!)
10. Read my Bible more. I really am a pathetic christian. (CHECK!)
11. Serve more and talk less (not that I've really been do that either) (CHECK!)
12. Buy some knee high sexy boots. (Can't decide on Chocolate or Black) (CHECK AND CHECK, I BOUGHT BOTH!)
13. Find a mentor (CHECK!)
14. Mentor someone (I think you learn just as much)
15. Read more and maybe write a little to amuse on a saturday afternoon.

Not bad Aleckson, not bad at all! Feeling pretty good about that!

I'm actually looking at two jobs back in Pullman at the moment. Not even joking. They would be steady and pay well and eventually allowing me to get my masters degree. I still need to study and take the GRE. Heck, I still need to find a field that I can consistanly remain loyal to for more the 10 hours. But its a start.
I love my job at pierce. I have a great boss, decent co workers and its comfortable. The work is a little on the boring side but not too bad. It doesn't really thrill me though. You know that old saying "If you find a job doing somehthing you love, you'll never work another day in your life". Well I think I'd really like to work as an manuscripts and artifact preservationist. I know that sounds so "yawn" to many people, but I think it would be indescribable to hold history in your hands. To touch the paper that many great minds had touched and spilled their thoughts in ink on each page. To touch a bowl from the 10th Century that a mother had used to prepare meals in for her children everyday with out a thought to the longevity it would have. That maybe her many a great grand child might hold or see it at a museum hundreds of years later. I love those eerie thoughts, the mystery, the wonder. Humanity hasn't changed much. In fact, I wonder if its even possible to have an original thought now a days. Chances are somewhere, someone at sometime has had the same thoughts, feelings, and emotions that you are feeling today. Nothing is really new or original. In the history of all humanity,how many people have been born? When the end comes, what is the final count going to be. How many fetuses, children, and adults have existed. That's a lot of souls.... and to think about how many nobodys lived out there lives, never making history. How many of the most amazing stories will forever go unknown simple to be lost in the minds and memories of those that came long before us. Its sad. But kind of like being a nobody too. I've never made the news. I'm not political, famous, rich, or adventurous. I'm just a nobody. Which I'm actually ok with. Anonymity suits me just fine.

Anyway....I have to work on those job posting so I better scoot. I just thought it would be fun to look back at my old writings and journal entries. Makes me smile.

Mon, Mar. 9th, 2009, 08:42 pm
and it just keeps comin...

So today was full of many conversations. All of which have left me sort of tired. I found a new pms food at Fireside. Deep dish cookie...need I say more! Had a good chat with the Kari friend. Meanwhile the snow poured outside and made my life miserable for a whole 10 minutes trying to get home. I conquered Center St with no gravel and no plows and only my back tires. Though now the whole neighborhood smells like burnt rubber. But I don't want to hear anymore crap about west siders being pansy drivers in the snow, cause it took much determination and swearing to get me to the top, but I made it dang it!  hehe, I was actually physically scooting my body in the seat to get us going. It was all very theatrical.
Anyways...
Thinking about doing a kariokie (sp?) party at my house as one last hurra before I leave. So Lara you guys should soooo come to visit. I want you there in all the glorious cheesy moments. Maybe do theme as well...hmmmmmm, gonna have to start looking at music and stuff.

OH my goodness. I feel so nasty and bloated.  Ate way too much. That cookie was a big cookie.
Decided to stay in Pullman over spring break to make some money and work on my research. 
My fish is wiggling her butt at me. She's such a tease. 
Ok...feeling pukey. I need to go lie down and digest. Bleh!


 

Tue, Mar. 3rd, 2009, 10:30 pm
As time goes by...

well hello silent void. I've missed you!
I've decided that I kind of hate facebook and miss the intimacy of live journal. So here I am. My crazy life has taken some twists and turns. I'm officially leaving pullman in May. Very Weird.  I feel like I've been here forever, and so much of it has become a part of who I am. So many memories, so many friends, so many people that I find to be rediculous.
What am I going to do?
I don't know.
I've never really had a problem building new lifes in new places, so we'll see where I go.
Things that I know I want to do for sure?
1. Take tap lessons. I 've always wanted to do this. I've done practically everything else, and its darn good exercise.
2. Take another vacation to New York. This time I want travel to Boston, Pittsburg, and Philli as well.
3. Get my passport. It the first step in going anywhere outside the U.S.
4. Find a new best friend who's not dating, married or pregnant.
5. Start saving for that house I want.
6. Start going to group things that scare me. I need to have confidence in my personality again.
7. Cherish my parents more. They won't be around forever.
8. Start to think about me being in a relationship again, and not be afraid of going for it.
9. Buy a puppy.
10. Read my Bible more. I really am a pathetic christian.
11. Serve more and talk less  (not that I've really been do that either)
12. Buy some knee high sexy boots. (Can't decide on Chocolate or Black)
13. Find a mentor
14. Mentor someone (I think you learn just as much)
15. Read more and maybe write a little to amuse on a saturday afternoon.

So yes, these are the things I plan on doing after graduation. The job thing is kind of a given that's, well, lets face it, boring and nobody cares about.


this was kind of nice to get my thoughts out. ok, back to Beggars, Iconoclasts, and Civic Patriots.  Who doesn't love history?

Sat, Oct. 27th, 2007, 12:56 am

 Ok lesson learned...sorta
Don't watch creepy tv shows right before bed. Yes I just started an addiction. I've been deprived of tv for 3 years now and carmel got me hooked on watching the day after shows on the internet. I did all my homework first so that was good, but I'm up late. And some of those shows get scary and I don't like being alone in my room with the lights off and scary things are happening. I literally am the definition of pansy. So no more "solve the mystery" shows late at night when I'm alone.

Well I have to get up for work way early tomorrow. Not my cup of tea. And I have to walk. Fabulous!
Well here's to not getting any sleep cause of boogy men under the bed.

NIGHT!

Sat, Oct. 20th, 2007, 05:41 pm
Dust, Bob, and chocolate covered strawvberries.

 I finally deep cleaned my room. I still have draws to go through, but closet, underbed and floor is spick and span.
I also cut off a foot of my hair and donated it to locks of love. Its was fun, and I like my new bob. Its bouncy and easy to style. I missed my long hair for about an hour and then got over it. Hopefully it will go to some good use.
I still have a ton of papers to go through and throw away. I'm not very good at throwing stuff away. Such a pack rat. For some reason I feel like every piece of paper has feelings and every stuffed animal feels betrayed down to the last fuzzy slipper. But I need to down side and get rid of junk. I also wish I had one of those dust catchers in my room that you wipe clean ever week. I almost died of the black lung, dust induced of course!
I also made chocolate covered strawberries. Divine. I looooove chocolate covered strawberries. So I'm gonna indulge on those and watch transformers OR eat, drink some tea and light candles and relax to some snappy jazz. Mmm I know how to kick it!

Well love to stay but I have to go enjoy life...

Fri, Sep. 28th, 2007, 12:17 am

Its amazing how getting a paper off your shoulders can releave massive stress levels! My argument actually turned into an acceptable thesis. Thank God!
I know I'll always get them done, how I do it, God really only knows.


Relax, recoup, reload, reread.

Tue, Sep. 25th, 2007, 10:15 pm

 sigh...Kristin's post has put me in my place.
I need to stop worrying about this school thing and trust that God is all over my issues.
oi.
ok, off to go to the right things.

Tue, Sep. 25th, 2007, 11:47 am
Moan and groan....

Well life could be worse but I'm kinda unhappy and a little freaked out by this curve ball just thrown at me.
The College of Business just decided that if you are not certified by now, a new requirement has been added for graduation. YIPPEE! (rolls eyes)
They are now making it manditory to Study Abroad 6 credit worth. Um I'm supposed to be done in 3 semesters. I can't study abroud! I didn't get certified last semester because I didn't pass my Accounting class (stupid Caylor). So now because I had a really bad teacher who had opinions about "weeding out the College of Business" I have all these stupid requirements loaded on me. AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Its incredibly unreasonable. I'm trying to finish in three semesters because that's all the time I have left to finish. Financial Aid stops handing out the presidential flash cards after 6 years. SO in those semesters I have to find time to take my classes, finish up my manditory 1000 hours of HBM paid experience, and find time to take six credits in another country, plus find the money to pay for it???
Yah right! The alternative to studying abroad is majoring or minoring in IBUS or ForLang. or take 2 more IBUS classes, which is probably what I'm gonna have to do, but cramming my semesters full with all nasty hard classes and keep my GPA up is going to stress in a handbag! Plus HBM is full of Pompous Jerks that measure the meaning of you life by who you intern for and now, if you studied somewhere foreign.
This would have been all fine 2 years ago when I wanted to study abroad and do all the cool stuff, but I just want to be done!!!!!! Please just let me go!
And I'm sorry but to my understanding a lot of studying abroad is just an excuse for HBM  faculty and students to go on a 6 month booze up in a country where alcohol is cheap and  most drugs are legal. 
Why would I want to waste 10k on that kind of education? I can go to spanaway if I wanted that.

Info meeting on Wednesday where I'm going to get some answers but most likely I'll  just have World class, in your face thrown at me. If you want to succeed in life(which I don't really care anymore) than this program will help you get there. I wouldn't mind picking my nose for the rest of my life as long as it got me away from those political, pompous, full of themselve, butt nuggets. Most of the "successful" people in this industry have no family, no friends, no life, they work weekends but "they're happy cause they have money and power". 

I quit!

Tue, Sep. 18th, 2007, 12:57 pm
All that racket!

Well I write you from the war zone of center st! Stupid noisy construction. Which is literally 10 feet from my window. 
I'll be very happy when this is all done and the new road is sparkly fresh and black! Til then the continuous BEEP BEEP BEEP  will continue.

I need to finish getting ready for work. I am ready for fall. Ready for orange leaves, ready of a chill in the air, ready for pumpkin spice lattes (which actually is aready being served at SB) and ready for quiet afternoons of peace.

I'm constantly struggling with my state of mind. If that makes sense at all. For some reason I always thought I could force myself into a happy state. I've always kind of been able to do it. You know, with the proper sunset, the right smell in the air. I could just be content and happy. To walk down the street to my bus stop and instead of thinking about getting my homework done,  think about making a cup of cocua, dim the lights and read a little bit of history. Same task is getting done just looking at it from a different persective. It might be one of those "half glass full and half glass empty" moments, but I've always prefered to be half full. It's all too easy to think about how 
life is falling apart at the seams, when really its not. And I never like comparing my own situation with others who are worse off. So I'll choose to just add a little creativity, use my imagination and hopefully succeed in that way. You know, make lemonade out of lemons?  And also remember God's timing is perfect. 
So now instead of worrying about what I wear to work, and stressing about getting stuff down. I'm just gonna go throw on some music, put some makeup on and bring a book to read at the office (which just happens to be my history). 
Tata.

Mon, Sep. 3rd, 2007, 10:59 pm

 (sigh)
I hate bugs in bed
I hate bug bites
I hate books that look tiny but in all reality take forever to read. how is it I can read a 350 page novel in a day, but its like pulling teeth to read this puny 80 pager.
Stupid Black Plague.  Some of its interesting but now it just the stats and I'm falling asleep or I begin to daydream.
Bah!
Ok going to bed!

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